I haven't updated this thing in a long time, so I figured now would be a good time to since some stuff has happened since the last update.  One, some jackass moronic piece of shit ass-eating jackoff decided to infect my forum server with a Exploit/ByteVerify trojan and my host company is either half asleep or too retarded to realize that the damned thing is infecting the PHP module on the server.  Hence the reason the injection code only shows up when a .PHP page is loaded and not when a regular HTML page is used.  They continually insist that the server is clean and that it is somehow our fault or that we're imagining our virus scanners going off like fireworks on the 4th of July when loading pages from their server, right?  Typical, seems my community can't get a fucking break this year.  Something or the other is always happening which forces us to change servers or forum software which most likely this is going to cause.  So now we'll probably get to start over from SCRATCH for the 5TH FUCKING TIME. GRAAAHHHH!  I am going to go back to using YaBB and say FUCK mySQL forum software from now on.  If I can't access everything I need to run the forum, then I don't want to use it.  That and I have seen so many forums and sites screw up because the database, which is supposed to be 'faster' and 'better', screws up and corrupts itself.  This has happened too many times for my taste so its back to reliable ol' flat files I go!  At least then I could just delete shit I didn't want in the 'database' one file at a time and if some jackass hacked the flat files they were easily restored from a backup on my system.

That isn't where the shit stains of life end, though.  I had an interview with the CEFCO store next door to our apartment and I had the fucking job.  I HAD it, and then they came up with some lame ass excuse about their 'hours being cut back' at the last fucking minute.  Do I LOOK stupid?  I know an aversion tactic when I see one and I don't appreciate it since I was upfront about everything.  In other words CEFCO, you can suck my hairy balls.  I refuse to use your stores ever again after this bullshit and I will make sure everyone else I know uses the 7-11 down the street instead of your little shit store.  It'll go under and I'll laugh as it does, you fucking pricks!  Ha!

On the good side of things (and there isn't a lot), I downloaded a new antivirus (Avast! http://www.avast.com/) and it works pretty damned good. Has like seven on access scan providers and a mini-firewall built in so basically everything I do online is scanned for viruses and other annoyances. It doesn't catch a lot of the Spyware, but that's why I have Microsoft AntiSpyware installed as well and it catches most things.

I am also looking forward to watching Dungeons and Dragons II: Wrath of the Dragon God on the SciFi channel this coming Saturday night. I am a fan of Bruce Payne because he's an evil looking french bastard and possibly the only man from that country that has a pair. He got a bad wrap from the first movie because they forced him to wear this hideous blue lipstick, but he by far out 'villained' Jeremy Irons and was the main bad ass in the movie (I loved it when he killed Snails :P). He was the Hannible to Jeremy Iron's Zanatose, so I liked both of the characters a lot (even if Jeremy did over-act most of the film). I am not sure about the protagonists in the movie, though, and I am afraid they're going to fuck up with the costuming. I'd rather not see these characters wearing plastic armor like they did in the last one.

I have another DEP meeting this coming week and supposedly we're going to a Spurs game on the fourth of Nov. I don't even LIKE sports, but this is considered 'mandatory fun' so I have to go. I will use this opportunity to get some more information about boot camp and Navy life itself out of my recruiters, though. The more I can learn from them before entering the service, the better.

Well, that's it for now. Be sure to stop by Darkspeaker's Myspace for more information about the ol' KingOfChaos/Law. I got bored and made a profile over there, even though I am pretty damned sure something on that site is installed the WinFixer malware on my system since it shows up on my AOL Spyware scan whenever I go there.

August is a month of change around here, most of it not good.

First of all, my mother decided to have a heart attack and ended up in the hospital.  This is after beating breast cancer.  She really needs to get her shit together health wise or she is going to die before she reaches the age of 60.  She needs to lose weight and become a bit more conscious of herself and stop living in a dream world revolving around deep fried food and television.  On top of that crisis, the gas prices here are fucking ridiculous and everything has gone up in price because of it.  An amount of food that would have cost us $140 last year now will cost us approximately nearly TWICE that now.  While I rant about that, let me also rant about the price of healthy food compared to shit like chips.  You want to know why Americans are fat?  It's because the food that is healthy for us is through the roof price wise and the greasy shit food that everyone eats is dirt cheap.  That's why.

However, there are some good things this month.

My neice, Rayna, is now in kindergarten.  Yes, today is the first day of a long time of hell for my little neice who actually seems to enjoy school or something.  Most little kids freak out the first day of school and they cry, etc.  Not Rayna, according to my sister, she was just like "Okay, you can go now" and then informed the nearest children that they WOULD be her friend because she said so.  She definately has the Muder imperialistic attitude.

As far as I go, I can get back to working out now that we got some food.  I am going to be looking for a civillian job myself while I wait to ship out so I can afford my food and body building supplements.  I am TIRED of not being able to buy what I need to stay healthy and I have to do something about it as I would like to be even less fat and have more muscle when I enter bootcamp.

Today I have my first D.E.P. meeting for the Navy at 5 P.M.  Kinda nervous over what we'll be doing, exactly.  I know I now have to treat the recruiting office as a 'ship' and have to salute the flag and one of the Chiefs there when I first enter and then I have to salute the Chief and then the flag again when leaving.  I also had to memorize the Eleven General Orders of the Sentry and the Sailor's Creed in a single day.  Well, I didn't have to but I don't love push ups all that much, thank you.  I know I will be doing them anyway since the tool bags in the meeting with me most likely will not have memorized them yet and will continually forget the orders and the creed.

I am gonna do my best not to screw up and call one of the Chief's 'sir'.  Had to do ten push ups (easy) the last time I accidently let that one slip.  Luckily, I will be running on adrenaline during the entire time and will be able to do more push ups than normal because of it.

Yep, that is my goal now, to write 2,000 words a day until I have enough material to publish my own book completely written, edited, and developed by yours truly.  I figure that if I stick to this goal that I can have a full manuscript ready to edit within a month and ready for artwork by the end of another two weeks after that.  This sitting around and doing nothing for Realms of Evil has to stop, because it is killing the website and the community that developed because of it.  Half the people who used to post never do anymore and those that are still showing up just sit around and never post and it's becoming worse as the months roll by.  My estimation is that Realms of Evil will be dead activity wise by the end of 2005 if something is not done to save it from fading away from neglect.  Even if I can't update the layout, the site itself can still be saved with actual work by me.  As much as I believe RoE to be a community project, it really isn't.  People love the site and the forums, but I am the only one who can keep it from dying and I am the only one who really has the need to save it.  This is a good 12 years of work for me that is about to up and die because I can't take the fucking time to put more into it than I have been.

Not to mention that I miss writing on a regular basis.  I realized this last Sunday when I actually sat down and wrote up several of the major artifacts created by Zanatose after a gaming session.  The ideas just seemed to flow from my mind into the paper and I missed that feeling.  Now, this doesn't mean I am not going to work out more.  In fact, I will probably work out even more, since doing so seems to help my creative muse.  I actually came up with a few ideas for monsters while pumping iron yesterday.

Just gotta get everything straightened out mentally and physically and find a true balance.